Mini-Redemptions # 3

October 4th, 2009 by Sandy Kilpatrick
Photo by Edgar Arredondo, Christmas Day 1995

New Year's Day 1996: Photo courtesy of Edgar Arredondo

When I finished my degree I stayed on at Lancaster for a year in the picturesque little village of Galgate. It was a year of transition – I had met a very sexy Portuguese girl, fallen in love, and we decided to stay in Lancaster for another year to see how things would go. She opted to do a Master’s Degree in Environmental Philosophy, I started to work writing and defining songs. The arrival of Edgar Arredondo in our lives was a profound event. He had come from Mexico to do the Master’s and he ended up sharing a house with my girlfriend, Tess. Beautiful, and athletic, philosopher and poet, and with a magnetism that draws everyone who meets him deep inside, we were blessed to count him as a close friend. We used to visit the Lake District regularly, and this photo was taken there on the first day of 1996. That same winter we ecstatically built a snowman. Here’s a text I wrote about that night:

A Snowman to The Bird-Howling Seas

In Galgate, drawn from our coal-fire in the wee small hours, half-stoned and drunk, we stumbled through the narrow streets and over fences to the primary school playground. And we all started in our ways, each in our own excitement, kindling our own memories of childhood, rolling up these massive balls of snow. The night was gentle, and hazy pink, the kind of cold that’s perfect if you wrap up warmly, the kind of night that lingers into dreams. We rolled and tripped and tumbled, hollered and laughed and then, with renewed seriousness, built the biggest snowman I have ever seen. Four great balls and then the sculpting began – arms, feet and then a carrot for his nose, coal for his eyes, a scarf and a wooly hat. Refreshed with such a magical taste of life and friendship at its most joyful, we parted ways and went off to sleep for a while.

The children must have been amazed when they arrived  a few hours later. When we passed, anonymously, later on, we saw that the teachers had protected the snowman with traffic cones. And as we wondered what stories were going on in these young minds about this mysterious apparition – how did he get there? did he walk? was it a spaceship that brought him? was it magic? – we went walking up past the old graveyard to the  campus. I was lost in my own daydream trying to imagine the first ever snowman, and every other snowman that’s ever been made. I saw them melting down, drifting, drifting down into the water, into the rivulets and streams that would lead them to teeming rivers, and, finally, to rest in the wild, bird-howling seas.

Mini-Redemptions # 2

October 4th, 2009 by Sandy Kilpatrick

Paradise

This lonely tree

Is the forbidden one

That drinks from

The sparkling river of life

And gets energised by the sun.

It’s leaves are shaped like

Beads of wisdom

And, deeper than the green

It stands on,

It offers us what we need from life;

To know.

- February 1999

Song, where are you?

October 2nd, 2009 by Sandy Kilpatrick

 

This was written on the train between Famalicão and Braga. I had a period of writing poems where the form was defined by the duration of this journey, which is a journey that I really love. 25 mins duration, beautiful minho landscape, and sexy passengers to dream about when neglected by the muse. I would write the poem, in a frenzy, during the train ride. And then polish it up at home afterwards. So, condensed energy. That was the form. The subject is Song. Of course.

 

Song, where are you?

Are you the morning melody on the tip of a blackbird’s tongue?

Are you the happiness that fills a silent room?

Where do you wait song, when I wait for you?

 

 Song, you are ancestor, deep and wide.

The ancient sound of suffering confronting joy;

You are as vast as Notre Dame.

You are a choir in the Sistine chapel,

Hold the history of ancient Greece and ancient Rome in your soul,

Sing the Lord in polyphonic refrain.

 

 You are Apollo full of grace and light!

 

 You are the Velvet Underground and John Cale’s viola,

The strange tale of Waldo Jeffers and The Gift,

The Memory of a Free Festival.

You are Orpheus stilling the Gods.

 You were my consolation in teenage heartbreak,

You made my mother so happy when you returned to my bedroom!

The weeks of silence renounced, my turntable started spinning:

 

Be my woman girl; I’ll be your man

Be my woman girl; I’ll be your man

Be my woman girl; I’ll be your man

Every Sunday dollar in your hand…

 

Song, I love you.

 

I love your A-sides which are like the conscious mind and hit bound,

And the unconscious world of the B-side, all art and experimental;

The workshop and soul of the A.

 

Song you are magic!!

 

You are trance lost to the glory of the stars!!

 

Incantation, the loop of Om, plainsong;

A vehicle to transport the soul from dark to light.

Song! You are aural alchemy, seduction and desire:

You are Marilyn Monroe in her prime

Naked through chiffon, impossibly perfect.

 

You are rail-tracks and hobos,

Freight trains and stories of hardship and loss:

Come to me song, embrace me now

Take me into your power, transform me,

I’m ready to walk into the deep lucid mind of song

I’m ready now song

I’m coming home to you, song,

I’m coming home.

Mini-Redemptions # 1

October 2nd, 2009 by Sandy Kilpatrick

I came across a bag of notebooks last week, which span from 1999. I have a funny feeling about these; part horror, part joy. Some of the writing makes me cringe; clumsy expressions, naive thoughts, clichés, sad memories. But there are other things that inspire me or shock me, make me laugh, or even allow me to admire myself – which is fair, and kind, I think. Sometimes.

So I decided to look through them and save some fragments, sketches and notes, and give them an acceptable shape. I have called them mini-redemptions for now, until I can think of something funnier.

When we lived in Manchester we had our daughter baptised because the local catholic school was top of the school league at that time. Yeah, I know, that’s not very holy, is it? But it was a practical issue, and even though she was only 2, we were thinking ahead. To be honest I don’t really care about those leagues and charts and statistics – in fact I would happily be travelling around the world educating the kids with great people in crazy and magical places. But that’s another story. Anyway, the priest was very kind, and funny – he talked about footbal and discos the internet and modern life, in a way you wouldn’t expect in such a formal context. This is a little quote from him that I scribbled down during the ceremony:

 

A lot of kids today are not the full shilling!

 All you good people  here today know that. Life today is very complicated and our children have so much more to learn and deal with. But the three children here today will have the best foundations to prepare them for life and, we hope, they won’t turn out like that.

 - 20th June 1999, Manchester

The Monastery of Tibães

September 24th, 2009 by Sandy Kilpatrick
The Monastery of Tibães 14th July 2009: photo courtesy of Eduardo Brito

The Monastery of Tibães 14th July 2009: photo courtesy of Eduardo Brito

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In July 2009 I was very fortunate to start an Artistic Residency in the Monastery of Tibães. I will be there until Spring 2010 at least, working steadily on my new album, and several other ideas that orbit around the album itself. This will include photography and film, performance and art installation – all kinds of stuff.

I will be having a lot of friends around helping out with recording, and playing instruments, taking the photos and filming and stuff. So this blog will serve as a document of all things monastic – my reflections and thoughts about the residency, and the work in general. It may include ruminations about creativity itself – but all of this is meant to be a conversation really. So please come around, read, praise, cajole me, and get involved in this magical wee (virtual) world I’m creating. You never know, it might lead to tea in the (real) cloisters one day.